Hey bf
So it seems like tomorrow I’m going to a real party. Like in a real club w real people drinking real booze and a dance floor and all. Like the real deal. I don’t drink but my friends who are going with me do. They’re actually my cousins and as much as I love them, I’m terrified of going tomorrow. First because I’m not as close to them as they are to each other, plus is T’s birthday, aka she might bring some friends along. Friends I don’t know.. So my phobia of social events it’s definitly kicking in.
I’m not afraid of clubs, I’ve been to one once and I kinda of loved it. The thing is I’m afraid they’ll abandon me. Like they all start talking and having fun together and I’m in the background or more literally alone. Like losing myself from them, or they meet some guys and I’m alone. I have a whole bunch of ‘what if’s going on in my head rn which only gets me closer and closer of my breaking point in the anxiety point of view. Or pretty much any point of view for that matter.
So wish me luck, and may the odds be ever in my favor!
XOXO
-MP