In need of a Chuck Bass ASAP

I met a boy, cute as can be. But then I got tired of him – again.

We met at a friend’s party and we hooked up. A few days later he asked me out, I said no. He kept trying and I decided to go. We went as a grroup, it wasn’t like a date. We then started seen each other every weekend in group hang outs for a month. Finally we went on a date. Everything was pink. Until it wasn’t anymore.

It is not his fault, he is the sweetest thing, a very nice boy; likes to hold hands and act like a couple, which is SO rare now a days – boys just wanna fuck you and leave you. He’s not like that, he doesn’t even try shit. I try more then he does! Srsly, most times we make out, I’m the one who started it.

I don’t mind that, I actually like the fact that I’m more upfront than he is, that I have the lead in this ‘relantionship’ and all that. In fact there is nothing that I don’t like about him except the fact that he is sometimes a bit childish – even though he is five years older then me. But even that, it is something I could totally live with. If I wanted to.

But I don’t. I’m already tired of him. He is no different, he’s not original, has nothing that makes me tick. None of them do. I’m waiting for someone as interesting as Damon Salvatore (and I’ll even accept one who is not a vampire), Chuck Bass or Lord Narcisse (from Reign), and if they don’t exist in real life, well i’m willing to die alone before settling for less.

xoxo

-MP

 

My childhood dream

Every one has had a childhood dream right? Like what you wanted to be when you grow up, where would you go, what would you do when you become rich and that shit. The thing is, once upon a time, when I was 12, I started watching Gossip Girl and everyone who has watched knows about Blair’s obsession over Yale. As a very influeciable human been that every 12 year old is, I got my own Yale obsession. But different from all the childhood dreams we all have, this one did not go away, it only has grown w time.

The thing is, getting into Yale University, just 2 hours away from the best city in the world, is already extremely hard for a US citizen. Imagine for someone who knows nothing about american colleges aplication process, who can speak english but it is not their first language and has no money. Well you pretty much just pictured me.

The aplication process in my country is extremely different than the american one, I have to take a lot of tests to prove the eficiency of my English and I don’t have, under any circumstances, enough money to pay for college, aka a lot of finacial aid. 3 facts that make the already impossible acceptance 3 times harder.

But even though I have been dreaming and searching about this for years now, I had never actually done anything about it because it was always too soon.

It ain’t anymore. It is finally time to start doing this. Last week I went to a lecture about this and next week I’ll start an orientation process to learn and do everything I need to apply myself. It is finally here, and I couldn’t be more excited about it!!

Wish me luck and a LOT of money, cuz I’ll need them both!

xoxo

-MP

A promise

I know, I know, I am constantly spending way too much time away from you aren’t I: Well here I am once again, and once again I’m gonna say I will try to be more present.

The thing is life is going a million mile per hour and it’s harder and harder to keep up with it. Anyway, this blog is and it has been for years now, my safe harbor, the one place I feel truly free to expose my feelings and concerns. But, with that, I usually post something when I’m sad, cause is when I need this space the most. That is going to change. I’ll post things when I’m happy, sad, terrified about life or simply feeling good. I’ll post stuff all the time, in all sorts of situations.

I promise that.

xoxo

-MP